I read my last entry again the other day and it kind of depressed me, granted there are a few things making me feel that way at the moment… but that’s not what I want to focus on. Time and time again over the years I’ve heard people say that “life is what you make it” and I have always shrugged it off but I’m finally starting to realize how much truth there is to that saying. If you just allow yourself to be sad and down in the dumps all the time that is the way things will be, plain and simple. I know that there will be days when I feel sorry for myself and hate my current situation but my physical health, finances, and love life (or lack thereof) are only small parts of me… there are many others to focus on.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to try to turn over a new leaf… I’m already in the process of doing so. I’m not really a fan of waiting til the new year to make changes, so if I notice a problem I try to work on the resolution immediately. Being depressed happens, but I’m not okay with it and I HATE the way it makes me feel so I have been trying my best to stay positive and look at everything with optimism.
Don’t get me wrong it is definitely a challenge but I feel more at peace trying to be this way and I’m sure it’ll only get better with time. Having the support of friends who pray for me or let me know that I’m in their thoughts helps quite a bit. It genuinely makes my day when someone hits me up to check on me just to see how I’m doing or how I’m feeling. I’ve recently mended a couple of friendships with folks that I’ve missed and who at times know me better than I know myself so my circle of supports continues to grow and it makes me very happy.
Just remember that whatever you going through, it can always get better. It may be hard to accept that but once you do it will feel like a huge weight off your back!