So, I’m not sure what it is about New Year’s Eve that always makes me want to write but I think I’ve consistently done it a couple years in a row now. I thought about making a post on social media but I was like… why bore people with that? So I’m venting in my own little personal space.
I’ve been in a bit of a slump with my writing as of late both here and well… I don’t even want to get into my tech blog… its not dead but it is on life support and I have no idea when I’ll get around to showing it some more love… 2015 was not the best year of my life but it certainly wasn’t the worst either, I wish I had some long list of accomplishments as I did this time last year but no such luck.
The hardest part of this year hands down was losing my mother, and the fact that she died the first week in January meant that it was something that I had to deal with the entire year like a storm cloud overshadowing me. I’ve had a few bouts of depression off and on throughout the year over what happened but at the end of the day I haven’t let it get me down… and on the plus side I think my relationship with my dad has gotten stronger. My mom was my very best friend in the world and I still hate the days when I pick up my phone and want to call her. The cruel reality sets in reminding me that it is no longer an option.
On a more positive note though, while she was the best of the best… I have many friends that are still here that have been there for me and I can’t begin to express enough love and appreciation for all of them. They’ve been my shoulder to cry on or an open ear whenever I need comfort or a laugh and I feel like I’d be lost without them. I’m also grateful that my relationship with my brother seems to be getting better… it had gotten to a point for awhile where we only talked about two or three times a year. There wasn’t any bad blood between us we just never made the time for one another. Somehow in losing our mother we’ve managed to find the time and rarely go more than a week or two without touching base with one another. I don’t get to see him as much as I’d like, but its difficult when he isn’t very fond of living in the states. This year alone he’s lived in Dubai and now Thailand, both interesting places to travel to (perhaps its time for me to cave in and get a passport).
I can’t say that I have any actual “resolutions” for the new year, I try not to make those because I hate disappointing myself. However, I do hope that I find success and new opportunities in every aspect of my life and that I start setting aside more time to write in the future. It truly is therapeutic for me and I miss it dearly.
Have a wonderful New Year peeps!