You know how you have those moments in life where it seems like everything is falling into place and you completely ignore your instincts telling you something is not quite right? Well, I do. I have had more moments in my life than I care to admit where I’ve made decisions with 100% heart and 0% brain… and while they seemed to go okay for awhile they eventually crashed and burned. I understand the importance of life lessons and I wouldn’t change any of my past experiences for anything in the world. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and in its own time.
For the first time in what seems like forever, my mind and heart seem to be on the same page and in complete unity. There is no little voice in the back of my mind saying “Stop, don’t do it!” and while its a bit unusual I’m loving it.
I’ll be 29 in a few months and while I’m not quite where I thought I would be in my life at this point, I do see the start line for so many things I’ve always envisioned for myself and it makes me immensely happy. I’ve had to mentally process a good number of things within the past 2 years or so but I refuse to let those things get me down. I lost my mother at the beginning of last year (which most of you know) and I took that very hard… she was my best friend and the #1 person in my life and it happened so suddenly. This year would have been her 60th birthday and I had actually hoped to throw her a party, but she never knew and now it’ll never happen. It sucks that she won’t get to see me marry the love of my life or become a mother myself but I do feel like she’s still watching over me in some regard. Continue reading