BITTERSWEET MEMORIES.

It’s been awhile since I’ve written on here and the only excuse I have to offer is that I’ve been busy living life. My job all but drains me during the day and by the time I make it home its nearly 8 o’clock… and after this week my schedule will be shifting to a point where I don’t get home til closer to 10 in the evening. I’m grateful to have my job though because there were so many months last year that I wasn’t able to work.

The beginning of the year is something that one should be excited about but the first couple of days have been very somber for me. Each new year marks another without my mother and I miss her just as much today as I did the day I lost her. There aren’t enough words in any language to express the love and admiration I had and continue to have for this woman. She was my rock and anyone even remotely close to me can assure you that I was a “Mama’s Girl”.  I still can’t believe that it has only been two years without her because it feels like an eternity. January 5th will mark yet another year since the day I found her lifeless body lying on the floor in her apartment… the memory still fresh in my mind. It took at least 15 minutes before I could even let myself cry over the realization because I was in complete shock. She had pneumonia but people get over that every day and she had another doctor appointment right around the corner. Sadly she would never get to keep that appointment and I would never see her smile or feel her embrace again. Continue reading